Photo Credit: Denise Jolly
Be Beautiful 30 Day Series
30 days of redefining beauty #1
Taking the leap toward loving my body just as it is!
30 days of redefining beauty #2
In order to dismantle shame I am going to name it, claim it and let it go. These are my arms and they are strong and beautiful.
30 days of redefining beauty #3
I'm about to have a lot of fun pushing my comfortability with my body for 30 Days of Redefining Beauty. I would LOVE your support through this crazy journey.
30 days of redefining beauty #4
Dear Body, Pray.
30 days of redefining beauty #5
30 days of redefining beauty #6
The internal dialogue around my body is a nuanced voice. Similar to that of addiction it creeps in as redirection, which in turn becomes invisibility.
How dare I mute my body? It is a puddle jumping dance , under a heat lightening fire to Etta James whaling the most necessary "at last"
30 days of redefining beauty #7
It is really scary to put my body out there the way I am right now. I promise it’s for good reason. I am on a quest for love!!! In my quest I am learning there is so much fight stitched in loves practice. We are raised to hate each other and ourselves after all.
30 days of redefining beauty #8
This mornings sanity has been reground once again by the brilliant workings of my bad ass therapist Dr. Jacelyn Bronte aka Yoder.
Now it's time for some street dancing to the Jackson 5
Also, Good Morning!
The journey into loving my body continues here's #8. Have an exceptional day♥
30 days of redefining beauty #9
Of ALL 30 pictures shared this picture made me the MOST nervous. It is covert and so very queer. It's also one of my favorites in series.
30 days of redefining beauty #10
Hope you are having a beautiful weekend.
I'm braving taking this experience to the streets, this shot is the first one! Thank you for supporting me through this remarkable and challenging journey into loving my body exactly as it is, perfect, whole and complete.
30 days of redefining beauty #11
30 days of redefining beauty #12
Today's photo felt like more of a reclaiming of body. Shirtless on a busy street corner in Berkeley during early morning commute hours, lord was I scared, uncomfortable and just fine by the time I finished the shot. It's so strange to possess such a deep rooted belief of shame around and the size of my body met with a remarkable want to see myself as an embodied human.
30 days of redefining beauty #13
These are my beautiful wrinkles!
30 days of redefining beauty #14
Can't stop, Won't stop exploring what it means to love my body just as it is. As hard as this journey is (which no lie it is fucking hard) it is worth challenging the discomfort. Every time I take a shot I navigate through so many self hating internalized voices.
I am not beautiful for a big girl or a fat girl.
I am beautiful.
I am beautiful.
I am beautiful.
30 days of redefining beauty #15
30 days of redefining beauty #16
Dear Cast Stone,
30 days of redefining beauty #17
30 days of redefining beauty
30 days of redefining beauty #19
This push is rooted in the exploration of visibility and LOVE. Today's shot was the most vulnerable and challenging to date and there are still 11 days left!
30 days of redefining beauty #20
It's a fragile heart kind of day.
30 days of redefining beauty #21
30 days of redefining beauty #22
the night my mirror broke
30 days of redefining beauty #23
30 days of redefining beauty #24
Today I am brave.
I am brilliant.
I am an offering.
I am learning.
I am powerful.
I am everything that has ever been done.
I am everything possible.
I am becoming.
I am beautiful.
30 days of redefining beauty #25
Heading to Oakland pride in this outfit with a white ruffle parasol. Which is to say I will be GIVING IT to the people today!
The only place I have given this much in public is at Burning Man and even that is rare. Today is the day of the temple burn on the playa. The temple burn for me has always been a release of grief and an honoring to how it has and will always serve my journey. Today I am releasing the grief I carry about my body.
30 days of redefining beauty #26
I know I have said this before and I am going to say it again and again, we are socialized to hate and destroy each other in the most covert ways. I dare you to tell someone they are beautiful and mean it. I dare you to search for beauty in the most complicated and perceivably "ugly" parts of yourself.
You and I are beautiful exactly as we are.
30 days of redefining beauty #27 on a roof top in Oakland, CA
Photo taken by Nic Alea
This is the 1st picture taken without my mirror and by someone else. I've been trying to figure out how to capture the backside of my body using my phone camera ALL month and could not get a good shot. last night was a blast taking this shot on a rooftop at sunset with a great friend. Thank you Nic Alea thank you thank you thank you!
30 days of redefining beauty #28
It took everything in me to share a picture today. I am very checked out of my body right now. Thankfully I am grounded in my commitment to this 30 day journey.
Dancing is one of my favorite things in life. Moving on a floor in a shared pulse with a room full of hot sweaty queers shaking off all that the body caries. In my mind I am a ballerina, a hip hop queen, a stunning diva in strobe. In life I am a beautiful Dancer.
30 days of redefining beauty #29
"the space of our lack is also the space of possibility" bell hooks
Today I am inviting a new story, new possibility, one that is rooted in honoring my life experiences as part of a journey that made me powerful, strong, driven, full of light and heart. Today I am inviting a practice of love that is rooted in shared desire, that is abundant and clear. Present and honoring of all that makes me whole perfect and complete exactly as I am and exactly as I am not.
30 days of redefining beauty #30 taken on the BART Subway
Photo by Airial Clark
It is day 30 and I am overwhelmed with joy and power and Light. Last night was the perfect completion for this project. Sonya Renee Taylor Thank You for blessing my body with your love and belief in its power. Thank you for grounding me and helping me prepare for this leap.Thank You Cassandra Dallett, Lauren Wheeler, Dahled Jeffries, Alethea Power, and Tatyana S Brown for being my bodyguards and cheerleaders.